The Elephant's Room

Monday, January 10, 2011

She is just a girl

who thinks about her dreams before she dreams them. She imagines herself in a glass box, the world watches on while she struggles for sleep. They feel the frustration resonate from the twists and turns occupied by an unconventional mind. She forgets her body parts, floating through the pins of her subconscious, questioning why the music for airports makes her feel the most.

Things will be brighter someday, scream it at the waves, tell the tide to fucking stop changing so the moon can take a rest.

Friday, January 7, 2011

I'm so scared

of what could be real.

I don't want this, you don't want this, I don't believe it's even possible.

I need to tell you.

I won't tell you though, because I don't know.

I'll find out.

I hope.

Soon.

Oh, so cryptic.

Now Playing: Tezcatlipoca EP - Tubelord

Monday, January 3, 2011

There is not a thing

left that can surprise me.
I grow and I wilt and I lose ground and continue to grow.
I am happy and I am sad and I break down and I find a way to be happy again. Repeat. Repeat.

I am learning to be okay with myself as a party of one. I'm getting better at being alone.
I eat alone, I sleep alone, I sing alone, I love alone.
This is alright with me.
There is a certain beauty that comes with the introspection available to only the loner. There is a beauty in the sadness, and I believe that the number one is gorgeous. I look differently upon everything, having to accomplish it by myself. I'm confident that I will someday find the compliment to my being, but I am no longer giving in to my whims to search them out.
I could be with anyone, my personality can easily flex and bend enough to fit them.
I could be anyone, I could love anyone.

Now Playing: Daytrotter Session, 1.3.11 - MGMT

I am a glass child,

properly lit to shine, but dull in the mind.

I break at the first sign of a conflict, and I'm not doing this with you. Any of you.

I will hate you all I want.

Now Playing: Our Color Green EP - GlassJAw

I don't know if

I'm ready to talk yet.

I like the things I keep inside too much to share. Selfish little girl.

Just know that I do miss you.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

End of 2010, speaking

in musical terms.

I write for a lovely blog called the Pittsburgh Music Report, that you should all totes read.

We're all really awesome.

Here's my end of 2010 list. I got to pick my three favorite albums and shows to share with everyone who reads our blog.

It was fun to write, the first time I've ever done something like that.

Opinions?

Now Playing: Cassadaga - Bright Eyes

So this is the new year,

and I don't feel any different.

I'm going to change that, though. I have so much to look forward to.
1. Second semester of college, getting my freshman year over with.
2. Moving out of my house officially.
3. Lollapalooza again, with my best friend.
4. I would like to go to the beach this summer, too. (This may be just a wet dream, 'cause I'm broke.)
5. Spending my sophomore year of college in an apartment by myself, and not with a stranger.
6. Finally figuring out what I want to do with my life.

Now Playing: Transatlanticism - Death Cab for Cutie