The Elephant's Room

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

from now on.

I'm going to try to do this at least twice a week.

Someone may read it, or nobody will read it. I want the beauty, not the acknowledgement.

I believe that when strung together these five words make a gorgeous sentence, in every way possible.

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Now Playing: American Hearts, by A.A. Bondy

Monday, September 6, 2010

cool-lege.

My headline is no longer correct, folks.

This here bloggy is now being bloggily blogged from my college dorm room.

I know, I was away for a while. Meh. I just lost time after school was out, since I no longer had a seventh period study hall.

So hm, cause I know it's really vital information to you all, I'll tell you about college from my perspective:

1. It's not all it's cracked up to be.

2 It is also everything it is cracked up to be.

3. It's easy to find people you'd like to be friends with, it's hard to actually become friends with them. The percent of people who actually meet once and then become friends has to be like, .000000001 up here.

4. People learn your name because you have tattoos and/or snakebites.

5. The common misconception of most of the Honors College students: You blow your nose ring right out every time you sneeze. (I am however dispelling this rumor every time someone asks me that question.)

6. You will probably hate your roommate. Especially if he/she scuba dives and uses very rapid hand motion while speaking.

7. You think you will like getting away, but you don't. Granted, it is nice not having fat ass, one ton crazy bitches constantly ruining your high school life, you will miss your good friends way more than you hate fat people.

8. People are still mean in college.

9. But there are so many more nice people.

10. Hookah makes friends.

11. You will often want to leave.

12. Every guy really is obsessed with CoD.

13. You will play dibs, A LOT.

Take that how you see it, but that's what I've learned so far.

Over and out.

Now Playing: The Big Dirty, Every Time I Die

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Oh my, oh my.

I cannot wrap my mind around everything that has been going on lately. I can't work correctly and I feel like a short circuiting robot.

I want to be angry at the world again. I want to have no discretion over what I dislike, I want to dislike everything. Then I would not have to decide what to like, and what I want. I can't decide these things.

I am sorry to turn this blog into my personal journal and the place where I air out my mind, but that is what it is turning into. Most of anyone who reads this probably can't even understand my scatterbrained words and combinations of sentences, but there are a few people that can. A person that can see into my head without even being in the same room, and knows exactly how I am without even telling him. This is the source of my confusion. I can't be apart, because it is literally impossible. He will always be there, regardless of whether we are near or not. I am slowly learning to accept everything about this person, and it is a strange feeling.

We are seventy five percent water, yet the same water has the capability to kill us all when it pleases. This is what I know, and this is what I am risking.

Do I mix the freshwater into the ocean, or will it even make a difference?

Now Playing: Blue Sky Noise, Circa Survive

Monday, June 21, 2010

well, it's creeping back in.

My happiness, that is.
It's mostly in part to me fixing a major mix-up that I had been dealing with for quite a while. It was a mix-up between my heart and mind, and who I gave those things to. I have been hurt and I'm finally to the point where I can start patching myself up. It's a nice feeling. But I can't perform surgery all on my own. There's someone helping me, and right now that's all I can really say.

Now playing: Congratulations by MGMT.

Monday, June 14, 2010

I am bored.

I have nothing to do at all.

I am waiting for Austin to get back from eating with his grandfather, then he will come talk to me. It's weird that his grandfather lives right next to me, but I haven't seen him since I was six. At least we can catch up tonight.

I'm so bored that I can't even find words to type. Ugh.

Goodbye.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

end, then beginning.

Today is the last real day of high school for me. What a momentus occasion. I have never been so excited in all my life, to be at the beginning of something. The end is wonderful, but I can't do anything besides look forward to what will come.
:)

In other news, I finally got my La Dispute tattoo. It was rather painful, but very pretty. I will put pictures up eventually.
It says, in two hearts, "what is life without a purpose, what is purpose without love" which are my favorite lines of any song, possibly ever.

Now Playing: Somewhere at the Bottom of the River Between Vega and Altair, by La Dispute

Monday, May 24, 2010

The Archer's Bows are Broken

is the song of the day.
The one I can't get out of my head, and that I've listened to more times than I should in six hours.

What did you learn tonight?
You're shouting so loud you barely enjoyed this broken thing,
you're a voice that doesn't sing, that's what I say.
You are freezing over hell,
you are bringing on the end, you do so well.
You can only blame yourself, that's what I say.

Some of their songs make me think too hard, and I like it that way.
I love the pain in the words.

What do I carry the torch for? Do I believe in anything? Do I carry it around just to burn things down?
I need to figure the answers out, and fast.

Now Playing: The Devil and God are Raging Inside Me by Brand New